I have been struggling with how to write this post for the last couple of days because of the way it might sound. Of how I might sound. The last thing I want to do is sound like a yoga snob. So maybe I should just preface it by saying that its possible I was too fatigued and not in the right mood for what I was actually walking into. I realize a lot of factors can contribute to an experience...whatever that experience may be. And sometimes its up to you to make it what you want it to be.
But nonetheless, I can’t lie. I was so excited about the inversions workshop I attended this past weekend that I may have gone into it with too high of expectations. I went into it thinking I would get a lot out of it. I thought I would not only learn new techniques for my own practice but would pick up helpful pointers for teaching inversions to my own students. But when all was said and done, I felt like I had learned very little.
In fact, there’s a part of me that just felt irritated by the whole experience. And don’t get me wrong, I don’t necessarily think it was a bad workshop or a bad instructor. In fact, the instructor was extremely sweet, knowledgeable and passionate about yoga. It just wasn’t working for me. For the most part, the techniques we went over were a bit too basic – things I felt like I had already learned and incorporated into my own personal practice.
We went over headstands for a good portion of the class. And I LOVE headstands. Love them. That said, I also feel really comfortable doing headstands and also teaching them. When I’m in a headstand I feel totally relaxed. Its one of those poses where I find a lot of inner peace and enjoy being present in that moment. So my issue with spending so much time on headstands was not doing the headstands or even going over the different techniques to get into headstands, it was all the distraction. I felt like the instructor wanted so badly to have us all doing the same thing when in reality we were all at very different stages in our headstand. I find being close to a wall during my headstand more distracting than helpful. I have the balance. I don’t have any fear of kicking up. I just want to be where I want to be and then go up and stay that way. When I tried to do my first headstand in the middle of the room unlike the five or so other students taking theirs on the wall, the instructor asked me to take mine on the wall as well. And quite honestly, having someone tell me to be in a particular spot was really distracting….and annoying.
We briefly went over handstands which was all well and good (but very brief) and then spent the remainder of the class doing shoulder stands. And while I can definitely use the practice on shoulder stands, I also really wanted to learn some new things. I was dying to work on my forearm stands, uneven forearm stands, and other arm balances and transitions.
In short, I left the workshop feeling extremely underwhelmed. Thinking back on it now, I realize my expectations for what the two hours should be were probably a bit too much. I should have just gone in, been present and open to whatever was going to happen that afternoon.
Have you ever had an experience like this? How did you handle it?